Utter nothingness – not even blackness. No time. No Space.
However, . . . there is one “thing”: consciousness – pure, timeless consciousness; though it is not even aware of its own presence. And that’s all.
Then, for some reason, after an unimaginable aeon, it seems it is “time”. This consciousness simply chooses to become “something”. Maybe it is “bored” of its own loneliness, though it can’t possibly have any idea of boredom whatsoever. Or, perhaps, something even more incomprehensibly deeper within that consciousness already “knows” what it wants: it wants to live, to experience life. But this consciousness, with its will to become “alive”, isn’t yet aware that in order to live, it has to go through an unimaginably long process of evolution. It is unaware that with its wish for creating a world in order to be able to see the world, it has already set in motion a gigantic apparatus of pain and suffering, with occasional, but highly disproportionate moments of peace and joy.
Jordan leaned over the guardrail and stared down at the electric blues and reds of the streetlights glinting off the surface of the river below. The rail was frigid beneath her fingers; she clenched them once, twice, three times. She’d read somewhere that it wasn’t the impact that killed you when you jumped from this height, but the fall. Looking down, she wondered if it were true.
“I’ve decided I’m a revolutionary,” said her friend, a bid for her attention. When she glanced over, Aliyah was leaning back against the rail, arms spread wide and head tipped up to the sky. Her coat was only a shade darker than the rusty red of the chipping paint beneath, but the lights from the buildings at the bank of the river caressed the curve of her shoulder, seeming to set it aflame.
“Sir! Someone has put a scratch mark with a pen, behind your shirt.” Exclaimed one of my colleagues. I had just got up from my desk and was moving towards the coffee machine. “Shit” I thought, “who could have done it?” “We’re waiting from a long time” The elder one quipped. “We’re hungry as hell, what took you guys so long?”
I changed my trajectory and veered towards the washroom. I could hear a few giggles behind me. I entered the washroom. Luckily it was empty; I stood in front of the mirror. “Do I really look that stupid” I said this aloud, then remembered someone could be sitting inside the toilet. I turned and slowly looked around; fortunately all the three cubicles were empty. Heaving a sigh of relief I turned my back and looked at the reflection in the mirror. “Damn” I cursed, I couldn’t see a thing. Feeling depressed I moved out of the wash room.
This short story is only available in German.
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